Sunday, January 30, 2011

2 sides

I think I'm one of those people who gets something in their mind, and then that's it. Its gospel. And then, I'm promptly proven wrong. I've been lucky. I've gotten to live 2 sides of a very hotly debated topic. Is it better to be a stay at home mom or a working mom? I was a stay at home mom for 6 years. I've been a working mom for 2 years. I'm going to consider myself knowledgeable on both topics. For those who have not done both, they are equally challenging. Each with its own very unique challenges. But there's one thing that is the same. And that's my love for my kids. When we decided that I would go back to work and Andy would come home for awhile, I was torn. True to keeping it real, I though it would be detrimental to my kids for me to go to work. Because after all, my way at home, was the right way, the only way. I didn't think anyone could do it better. But we decided at the time, it was what was best for our family. Now that I've been back to work for 2 years, I'm ashamed at my prior stance. My kids are getting special years with their dad. And honestly, I'm jealous. I didn't get 1/8th of the time with my dad that my kids are getting. And I'm going to admit something. Andy can do the girl's hair better than I can. He may not appreciate me putting that out there - but its the truth. Any way you look at it, being a mom is hard. Your the family's glue. Whether your at work or your at home. And that, I can attest to. You set the tone of the family.

I don't know why we get these ideas in our heads that make us think we're better than others because of the choices we make. When push comes to shove - every one's family is different. Some things work beautifully for one family and just don't work for others. Its that simple. I'm going to implore you to cut your fellow mothers, whether working or stay at home, some slack. We all love our kids, we all want whats best for them, and we all work harder than we ever thought , whether that be at home or elsewhere, for those we'd give our life.

Well that was simple enough to solve.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Week in Review

Week 1, done. Not only for my half marathon training, but also my first week at the new job. I could not be more pleased. While keeping in mind, it was just the first week, I really think I'm going to like it. After being so unhappy for so long in the old one, everything seemed refreshing, the people, the boss, the cubicle. I have not one thing to complain about. I know it won't be all roses and sunshine. I have learned that in my old age. But I'm confident in the change I've made.

So completely switching gears, we haven't made it a habit to take the kids to dinner with us at a "restaurant with a waiter". Anyone under the age of 5 just doesn't appreciate that experience. And cutting every one's food with an audience just isn't something on the top 5 "love to do" list. Its more work there, than it is at home. So its a rare occasion when the kids get to bust out their best manners and show us their stuff. But they do have "the speech" down. This is where we're all in the van, in the parking lot of some public place. I turn around and face them all, with my sternest look and threaten them an inch short of their lives if they embarrass me in any way shape or form while in said public place.

Tonight, we decide, we have to have our favorite Mexican food, which happens to be at a restaurant with a waiter. But we were craving it, so we loaded them all up and drove across town. While in the parking lot, they basically repeated "the speech" back to me, adding their own examples of how "we don't play with other people's napkins or eat chips off the floor." I don't know what happened in the past 2 years, but my kids have grown up. They were model children at the restaurant. And I'm not one of those moms who says that about their kids. Mine are the first to be instigating the trouble. We had a really, nice, enjoyable dinner.

Now, that being said, brace yourselves because one smooth week can only mean one thing. Next week.....I'll probably want to sell the children, quit my job and trade in my husband. Ha Ha. Oh, I kid...

Monday, January 24, 2011

Day 1

I don't think its a coincidence that the first day of my half marathon training was also the first day on my new job. This will be my 2nd half marathon ever. And this is my 2nd position with my current company. The similarities could go on and on, actually. I could make this entire post drawing parallels with a half marathon and a job. But I won't.

The first day went well. The nerves were so annoying though. But I got the best text from my old running partner (who also ran that first half marathon with me) on my to work. Its all just ironic, I tell you! There is a reason why she was my running partner. She is a motivator. And she said exactly what I needed to hear.

I won't bore you with the accountant details, but I will tell you I have high hopes for this. My motivation is high, my experience a good match, and my resolve steadfast. I plan on doing some things a little different this go around. And that's what its all about isn't it? Finding what works and what doesn't. I think I'm finally up for the challenge.

But I am a woman, so I reserve the right to change my mind with no warning.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

New Kid on the Block

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I'm starting a new job. Its with the same company, but a completely different department. New coworkers, new work, new boss, oh and lets not forget the new cubicle. It is a welcome change. Its been a rough year. But man, do I loathe being the "new girl". I'll probably be all nervous this evening, and find myself laying awake tonight. Much like I did last night. I just want to make sure I start this out right. There's something about starting out fresh. I love a clean slate. And you can't redo a first impression. The hope of doing things different, hopefully better than before.

I've learned a lot about myself this past year. I'm not as tough as I thought I was. I'm not as patient either. Oh who am I kidding, I never thought I was patient. But I sure have learned what NOT to do. And maybe that's what I was supposed to learn, but I sure didn't appreciate having to learn it that way.

I know you'll all (all 3 of you, one being my mother) be on pins and needles wondering how my first day goes. I'll be sure and make this my first stop of the evening once the kids are in bed.

Its 2am, can't get to sleep, think I'll start a blog

Its 2 in the morning, I'm wide awake. This never happens to me. Never. Yet here I am. I don't have time to blog. I used to have one. It fell by the wayside when I lost interest. But for some reason, I felt the need to start a new one. New title, new phase, new followers. And I think writing is the one creative gene I posess.

So lets start with the blog title, Just Finish Strong. I think those who know me really well, might be sick my talk of running. Its a newfound love, and I hope it stays for years to come. I apologzie if it becomes cliche'. But if you don't like running analogies, you won't be a regular reader. I'm not saying thats all your going to get here, but its highly likely running will be alluded to, or discussed quite often. So in nearly every one of my runs, the mantra "Just Finish Strong" goes through my mind the last block. I'm usually tired, and have my mind on what the rest of the day holds, but I tell myself this, nearly every run. And if your a person who likes to try to find deep meanings and apply them to many aspects of your life, I think this is a good one. I'm not claiming to be one of those, but I'm happy to throw one out there for those that are. Maybe thats going to be my life motto. I don't know. But right now, I need that reminder in my work, relationships, and decision making.

I can't promise this will be a deep, entertaining, or beneficial use of your time, but I can promise you it will always be me, keeping it real. we go!