12 miles was what the plan called for on Saturday. It was a nice 28 degrees and we were running by the Oklahoma River, which I have only done once so that was a nice change of pace. The first 6 miles were great. And then I don't know what happened to me. I literally fell apart at mile 7. You can see it in my splits. They fell to a minute to 2 minutes longer than my first 6 splits. I have done 2 out of 3 half marathons faster than I ran those 12 miles. I have no idea what happened. I'm halfway blaming it on all the Valentine candy I ate that I had previously bought for "decorating". And the other half on me coming down with a sinus infection. But I got mad. I got mad and just started walking. My legs hurt and I still had 3 miles to go. It was a random run/walk pace after that.
I have to give a shout out to my husband Andy. He stayed with me the whole time, encouraging me, and telling me how amazing the Starbucks coffee was going to taste when we got done. That right there was my better half at work as my cheerleader and I am so thankful. The fact that he could have just run on but stayed with me is a testament to what a great teammate he is. Thanks babe!
So I did some evaluating. Because after a run like that you have to evaluate things. Because you never want to experience it again. Hear me when I say, 75% of running is mental. 25% is fitness. You gradually build up your fitness. It takes care of itself. But the mental is where I am beating myself. So I'm changing my focus. I'm stopping the negative mental talk. And I'm going to focus on the positive. Cheesy - yes. Don't care. I've got a long way to go. And I am not. quitting.
I know my marathon training recaps are most likely not encouraging you to get out there and run one. But what I want you to take away from it is even though it's hard, I'm surviving. And I'm trudging along. You may be going through something super hard in your life. Your last 12 mile run in life may have sucked. Don't quit. Evaluate, and make changes. But keep going. YOU CAN DO IT!
This is how we felt at the end of that 12 miles.