Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Marathon Training Week 4 - Just kill me now

12 miles was what the plan called for on Saturday.  It was a nice 28 degrees and we were running by the Oklahoma River, which I have only done once so that was a nice change of pace.  The first 6 miles were great.  And then I don't know what happened to me.  I literally fell apart at mile 7.  You can see it in my splits.  They fell to a minute to 2 minutes longer than my first 6 splits.  I have done 2 out of 3 half marathons faster than I ran those 12 miles. I have no idea what happened.  I'm halfway blaming it on all the Valentine candy I ate that I had previously bought for "decorating".  And the other half on me coming down with a sinus infection. But I got mad.  I got mad and just started walking.  My legs hurt and I still had 3 miles to go.  It was a random run/walk pace after that.

I have to give a shout out to my husband Andy.  He stayed with me the whole time, encouraging me, and telling me how amazing the Starbucks coffee was going to taste when we got done.  That right there was my better half at work as my cheerleader and I am so thankful.  The fact that he could have just run on but stayed with me is a testament to what a great teammate he is.  Thanks babe!

So I did some evaluating.  Because after a run like that you have to evaluate things.  Because you never want to experience it again.   Hear me when I say, 75% of running is mental.  25% is fitness.  You gradually build up your fitness.  It takes care of itself.  But the mental is where I am beating myself.  So I'm changing my focus.  I'm stopping the negative mental talk.  And I'm going to focus on the positive.  Cheesy - yes.  Don't care.  I've got a long way to go.  And I am not. quitting.

I know my marathon training recaps are most likely not encouraging you to get out there and run one. But what I want you to take away from it is even though it's hard, I'm surviving.  And I'm trudging along.  You may be going through something super hard in your life.  Your last 12 mile run in life may have sucked.  Don't quit.  Evaluate, and make changes.  But keep going.  YOU CAN DO IT!

This is how we felt at the end of that 12 miles.

This is what a cup of coffee can do.  (And a hat change as we sprint to kids basketball games)

Coffee - my love for you knows no limits.  And you too Andy.

Saturday, January 23, 2016

I took a Drecation.....with Live Laugh Dress

The friends I made in college are some of my favorite people.  One of Andy's friends became one of my friends.  Which is even cooler.  Enter "Drecation" (her instagram handle) or Andrea Palmer.  Andrea can make me laugh like no other.  And when she started her business called "Live, Laugh, Dress" I knew I was going to support her.  So the time finally came where I booked her.  And this is what I got when I finally pulled the trigger.

I somewhat cleaned my closet first.  Then I invited her into said closet, while I sat on the couch and watched 5 episodes of Hart of Dixie on Netflix.  She was hard and work and I completely lounged.  She took things from my closet, put them together, took a picture, and sent me the album via iCloud.  I got 96......let me let that sink in - 9-6 photos of clothes I already owned that I had never in my life thought to put together.  Here are a few of my favorites.

I love these plaid pants.  Know what I always wear with them?  A black sweater.  This is what Andrea came up with from those lonely plaid pants.

I have had this turquoise necklace for years and never worn it.  Now i have no excuse, because this is super cute.

These purple hombre pants - I LOVE them. What do I wear with them?  A black sweater, because I'm super trendy like that.  What did Andrea put with them?  All of these!!!!

Those are a mere sprinkling of what I got for inviting Andrea to check out my semi messy closet.  Best money I ever spent.   I grabbed Andrea with a $90 special she had.  Her normal rate is $120.  That $90 would have bought me a pair of pants and maybe 2 tops.  I got 96 new looks.

Check her out.  While you Live, or in my case - veg, she'll most likely make you Laugh while she Dresses you.  Live Laugh Dress on Facebook, instagram and the web.  You will seriously thank me for this one.  Your welcome!

*edited to add if you are in OKC, she has a travel fee of $20 - still totally worth it.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Marathon training Week 4 - Lessons 2-8

I get why not everyone trains for a marathon.  And while I respected those who have gone before me and crossed that line, I have even more respect.  Especially those who have lives other than their running careers.  Here are the lessons I've learned from weeks 3 and 4.

2.  I want to quit every other day.  The "other" days are rest days.
3.  I just thought I liked to run in really cold weather. 20's - just no.
4.  Body glide is essential.  I emphasize essential.
5.  I can have some serious arguments with myself.  The beauty is I always win.
6.  Running with someone you don't know is a great idea because you can learn about them and it takes your mind off the fact that you are only halfway done and its been an hour.
7.  The fact that I always want to quit is going to make it that much sweeter when I do cross that line.
8.  Running fuel = candy.  Bonus!

We have to go 12 miles this weekend.  That is one mile short of a half marathon.
Oh.  My.  Goodness.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

I'm breaking up with you. I'm sorry.

Being an adult is hard.  Being an adult and navigating friendships is hard.  Some friendships come super easy.  Some are life sucking.  Some are life giving.  Some are seasonal.  Some are out of convenience. Some are one sided. Some are a constant struggle.  Some end.

I've had to come to terms with a couple of friendships that just aren't there anymore.  Both of these friendships were deeply rooted in different seasons of my life.  So it has been painful to let them go. When I think of certain points in my life I can't help but think of these ladies.  So why am I letting them go?

What I'm letting go of, are the expectations I have of the friendships.  If you are my friend, I'm all in. Call me any time of the day or night and I'll be there for you.  I have very deep friendships where we only talk/text once every couple of months, but because of what we have been through together in the past, it makes no difference.  I have friendships that need a little more attention, and I don't mind.  I enjoy their company, perspective, and insight.  But when a friendship becomes one sided, which a couple of these have become, I've found myself getting hurt, upset, and even mad.  Why aren't they being the kind of friend I think they should be???  So I'm letting go. What does letting go of them do for me?  It frees me from feeling all of those feelings, because my expectations of them are now gone.  I'm not going to be angry at them anymore, for creating distance between us.  I'm going to look at what we shared as friends, and be grateful.  And I'm going to know, it's now over.

I'm not holding any ill will towards those women.  As I said above, they were very important to me rooted in different seasons of my life.  Friendships change. And some need to end.  If they create drama, negativity, or are constant takers - I don't think you have any obligation to sustain the relationship.  That wasn't the case here - but just wanted to throw that in there.  I won't be writing them a nasty letter, or shutting them out of my life.  I will however free myself.

Insert instrumental music and butterflies flying away.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Marathon training Lesson #1

It is week 2 of Marathon training and I have already learned a lesson the hard way, of course. Because that is my style - to learn lessons the hard way.

Lesson #1 :  Do not, under any circumstance, even if it's snowing and sub freezing temperatures, miss your Saturday long run.

I was watching the weather like a hawk all day Friday.  It didn't look pretty.  Snow and temperatures in the high 20's.  I'm a self proclaimed cold weather runner.  But I think that 30 degrees is my cold weather running limit.  So I told my running accountability buddies that I was "tentative".  Their responses were - ok - but we're still in.  I sighed and thought, really Amy?  You're the wimpy one.  So I decided I was going.  But when 5:45am rolled around, and I pried myself out of my warm cozy bed to stumble into the bathroom, I succumbed.  That warm cozy bed was calling my name.  And I was feeling under the weather so really, I didn't need to be out in those cold temperatures - right?!?!?  I would be putting my health in jeopardy. So back into my bed I dove - with the minute thought that I had to figure out how I was going to squeeze in 8 miles over the weekend.

Now in a new turn of events, Andy is joining me in running the full. This was decided when both of his brothers and his cousin from out of town decided to join me.  His older brother kindly pointed out that he would most likely not live down the fact that his brothers, cousin, and wife were all doing it, and he wasn't.  So the annoying thing is he jumps right into training, without a solid running base - gasp! #heshowsmeupeverytime.  

The weekend was not enjoyable because I had 8 miles hanging over my head.  We decided it had to be done Sunday afternoon.  So instead of laying on the couch and dozing off to football - we were pounding the pavement.  The weather was nice, no wind and cold.  But I had to wonder if it would have been better to endure the freezing cold miles early Saturday morning to trade for a weekend free of worry. Izzy came along - her longest run yet - and could have probably gone 8 more.  But I have learned my lesson.  As Andy and I headed to the car, he said "We are going to do that, 3 times.  What are we thinking???"  And I had to agree.  Why do people sign up to do this?  Why did I sign up to do this???

But I have learned a lesson. These fake smiles you see below prove it.  I will never again, miss my Saturday morning long run.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

If you read it on the internet, it's true

I know a couple of people who think if you read it on the internet it's true.  I hate to break it to them - it's not.

But a certain responsibility comes with blogging.  I want what I put on the internet to be true.  And while I love sharing things with my "readers", always vowing to keep it real, I don't put everything out there.  I feel like I just might need a smidgen of accountability so here goes....I just signed up for a full marathon.  And I'm going to do it.  So now that I've put it in writing, it has to be true.  Who wants to join me??

I wanted to do something big while I was 40.  And the thought of running 26.2 miles consecutively scares me.  Like makes me want to puke scares me.  Like makes me want to cry scares me. And so that is why I have decided to do it.  And while I'm not Tony Robbins, I want this small space on the internet to be inspiring.  So lucky you - I'm going to chronicle my training!  Those of you who don't run are now moving on to the next blog, and that's ok.  But for the few of you who might care, I hope it's inspiring, because I plan on doing it. And I plan on crying because I think it's so hard.  And I plan on being proud because I did it.  So really, even if you don't run, you can still glean some nuggets hopefully regarding setting out to attain a seemingly unattainable goal.

Today was my first training run.  6 miles.  Not a huge feat, but when you haven't run 6 miles in awhile it rattles the nerves a bit.  I have chosen to do my long runs with a local running group.  And when 100+ people showed up this morning (by my estimation, don't quote me on that) - I decided that was a good decision.  It took me 4 miles to settle into a rhythm - which is far too long.  Basically I wasn't hating it by 4 miles.  Probably because most of the time I was like - are you really doing this Amy?  Are you really going to do this?? But running with someone I've never run with was a nice distraction as well!  So the 6 miler is in the books.  The coffee truck at the end of the run was my favorite part.  And then I promptly headed to the donut shop to treat the fam once they woke from their warm cozy beds.

Week 1 - check.  Only 16 left to go.....freaking out emoji face.